The First

I once had a xanga back in '05 when I:

• graduated high school as a junior with aspirations to move to Africa with a ministry based out in San Antonio but then funds fell through for me to go
  
• was left to stay in DRABile...err...I mean Abilene because funds fell through that were going to get to me Africa (a dream of mine)
• didn't have a job
• was living with my parents without a job in Abilene
• experienced my grandfather dying
• and, oh yeah, did I mention I was still having to stay in Abilene after I graduated?
  

Not a good year, neither was 2006. Well, I take that back. Fall of '06 (when I started school again) was pretty amazing. When things started to get good - that's when I bailed out on xanga. I guess I felt as if maybe xanga didn't have anything to offer me anymore. I couldn't really release any word anger because, well, life didn't suck. I guess that's what you do when life sucks. Blog.

I'm not gonna lie, life is definitely challenging right now but it's been awesome to see how God has grown me the last few years. In fact, the last 4 days, all 4 of my roommates have been out of town and, man, all I've been doing in cleaning, redecorating and basically been trying to get into the mind of Solomon in Ecclesiastes and am now in chapter 4. SO GOOD. God's just been good. Real good. In fact, I'm going to be on my way to Nashville, TN in less than 48 hours where I will get a tattoo to constantly remind how good God is. Not to forget to mention that it could quite possibly be one of the coolest tats anyone has gotten. Maybe that's arrogant. I'm sorry. But I do love it.

Solomon reminds me how much of a comfort and warm blanket it is that God is sovereign. ALL IS VANITY UNDER THE SUN! (more on this later)

To get to the point, I started blogging again because I lose my train of thought/get bored when I hand write. I'm such a thinker and analyzer (sp?) that I just need to let it out. My brain seems to flow better and I get out all that I want to through typing. Maybe there are some out there like me. I'm pretty sure of it. And I like to just write things down so I don't forget it later on. And also I like to hear feedback from people. That's all. I need sleep.